Archive for June, 2013

Isaiah 41:13

I am the Lord your God;
I strengthen you and say,
‘Do not be afraid; I will help you.’ ”


These past few weeks after Dad’s death has been the worst of my life. I can’t remember half of it….it was as if I was living within a black hole. Since yesterday, though, I feel ever so much better and I’ve come to understand that, yes, I survived…… I survived years of caring for people who never noticed….
I survived deaths of those people without any help from anyone….
I survived my own possible demise as a result of pure psychological, emotional and physical burnout…
….and through it all, despite my yellings and rantings (often), my praise and prayers (not so often), God has been my silent companion. He gave me strength…He made me what I am…I am His creation and He created a survivor.
I do hope that someday I will have the vocabulary, the RIGHT words, so that I can write this down properly and someone else can learn from it.
For now, know this, life is a cyclone, a terrible storm….but you CAN still stay adrift. Just cling to the cross and you WILL get through it. Sent via my BlackBerry from Vodacom – let your email find you!


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I’ve done nothing these past few days…I’m totally consumed by my grief. On Friday, 31 May, just past 2 in the early morning, my dear Dad left this earth for a better place. Well done Dad, you lived such a huge life…you meant so much to me…I will love you forever.

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